:|

I hate how people say "i'm here for you" when really they aren't. i hear those words and i just brush it off. if they were there for me, they would of been there all those times i felt apart :|

every time people need me, without any hesitation, i always be there for them but when my time comes, where are though?

don't be like this. i'm also a human. please understand that i also need someone when i don't have enuff strength to carry on. 

i don't mind helping people when they're in need. i don't mind sharing because i love to do so.

but sometimes, i need you people at least to put smile on my face. yes, at least...

it's not me who only pays attention to your story, problem or what not...it doesn't work like that dear..

it's us to face it together...

i wish you were in my shoes because only then you can feel the pain that i've been going through.

i'm sorry but picking up the stars alone somehow really testing the limits :|

kau, aku

kisah kau dan aku mungkin sudah berlalu

senyumlah walau terluka

ketawalah walau sengsara

realiti tak lagi seindah memori

hati tak lagi sekukuh besi

pasrah dalam menyerah

gigih walau pedih

moga ada yang sudi nanti

moga lebih di hargai

di sini hanya sementara

di sana pasti untuk selamanya :)

random thoughts

this morning i went to my "beloved" faculty with the greatest intention-reading journals and bla..bla..

but...

just tahan for 20 minutes. ha ha ha:P

wanna know why?

its because i can't stand sitting with people starring at me like i'm a huge alien or vice versa:P

who cares btw?

so, i left...

sampai rumah, hati puas:DD

lying on the floor for few minutes while reading few articles and journals

distraction again...

perut lapar..but i'd promised to myself to save money as much as possible. urghhhh...

then, encik called me, telling that he's eating fried spaghetti.

well, i can hear on the other side that he was heavenly enjoying the spaghetti. thanks encik! pffftt

teringin=.=

sadly, i just have a packet of maggie left...pathetic=.-

i miss home:(

i miss someone who always care about me:(

still remember? i miss those moments-___-

how about you dear?

motivation?

hellooo everybodyyy!
ceh, bajet mat salleh pulak:P

now, tengah struggle gile kencang untuk DRP bulan lima ni. DRP tu Defense of Research Proposal. baru nak defend u ollssss. urghhh, ada lebih kurang sebulan lebih je lagi. by right i should be mentally and emotionally prepared lah. please pray for me peeps:D

tak pernah terfikir pun akan continue studies di peringkat sarjana dalam professional communication area sebab masa kecik2 dulu cita-cita nak jadi doktor, jurutera, ha ha. cita-cita masa kecik2 nak gempak je kan. ingat nak jadi doktor tu macam kupas kuaci pastu masuk dalam mulut ke? *tibe*. paling tak boleh handle nak jadi pramugari. hahahahaha. memang tak layak lah sebab muka tak berapa nak hensem. eh? :P

sekarang saya realized, nak jadi apa pun kalau takda usaha umpama sengaja sabotaj diri sendiri. yelah, cuba bayangkan kalau kita tengah kelaparan, makanan kat atas meja tapi malas nak gerakkan muscle2 untuk bangun, dapat ke makan makanan tu?  unless mintak tolong orang lain ambilkan makanan tu. memang sumpah, pemalas kau tahap buaya lah kan. kesian buaya-__-!

so, ladies and gentlemen, always strive for the best if nak achieve sumting dalam hidup. orang yang beritahu ini pun dua kali sepuluh juga. hihi:DD

nak apa pun kena usaha okay? xmoh malas2. haipppp :P

nyte everyone:)

“This is a fantastic feeling”-Fernando Alonso:D

"anggaplah yang telah berlaku itu sebagai kenangan pahit, nobody's perfect, so why do we want to make it even worse. no need rite?" :)

nak hupdate pasal F1 aritu, nanti2 lah ye. heee:DD

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cukup sampai sini saja. aku takkan merayu lagi sebab aku yakin Tuhan sudah tetapkan seseorang untuk aku. terima kasih untuk segalanya.